I know, I go miss him very badly, he was always around me.
But when you know want happened in Phuket / Chalong (2012) and I was on the point to made suicide, worked there under pressure by an idiot. And came mental sick back in Bangkok, then you understand.
In 2012 I was Threatened, Humiliated, Hit in the face, Spit in my face, and so more.....
Now I fall back with mental problems because all the memories.
So small "Russian Mouse" always around you give you Love, Compassion.
Now my life is again empty.
It is absolutely not to explain.
But I must live with that.